Well, I finished my essay for Sisters in Crime finally yesterday and got it all turned in. Woo-hoo! That's something--the first thing I've really finished this year since turning in the last manuscript, and I am going to ride that particular triumph all week, and hopefully get the other things I want to get written finished this week as well.
I can hope, at any rate.
I'm not really sure why I struggled so much with that essay; I'm not really sure why I am struggling so much to write in general since I turned in my last manuscript. Even this blog sometimes seems like a slog; although I do suspect in some ways it has everything to do with my usual inability to focus on what I am working on; deadlines can certainly make focus much much easier to deal with. But I really want to get these stories finished this week, and I am also wanting to get some editing done and some work on the book as well. Maybe I am overestimating what I can get done reasonably in a week, I don't know. But it will be enormously satisfying, for example, just to get one of these stories finished. I actually was rereading one yesterday, also incomplete ("The Scent of Lilacs in the Rain", for the record) and it's actually quite good. It'll probably need to be edited down some, but not bad--there's about three thousand words or so already, and that'll probably need to be sliced in half at the very least since there are at least several thousand new words needed to finish. I also have no idea where I would publish the story--I don't know where I would publish any of the stories I've written/am writing. But I am enjoying working on them, so there's that.
One of the things I am trying very hard to do is remember that I actually do ENJOY writing. It's so easy to hate doing it, really--and that often has to do with the pressure of deadlines, or the frustration of it not going well, or it not going at all. I don't miss the pressure of deadlines, in all honesty, but I am starting to get concerned about not getting enough done.
Heavy heaving sigh.
But we finished watching Big Little Lies last night, and got deeper into this final season of Bates Motel--which is so deranged it's amazing! I am going to miss this show, and seriously, if Freddy Highmore is NOT recognized by the Emmys this year...I don't know what is wrong with the Emmy voters. PAY ATTENTION.
I am still digesting The Underground Railroad (and the show Big Little Lies), but I hope to blog about both relatively soon.
And on that note, back to the spice mines!
Here's a Twofer Tuesday hunk fest!