I finished the play finally yesterday and emailed it to the director. I am sure it will need some tweaking, but I'm down with that.
As Constant Reader is aware, I don't do resolutions. Rather, I prefer to set goals to work towards; looking back at the ones I set for 2013, some were achieved and others not. Reflecting back on 2013 has shown me several things: one, that I work too hard and take on too much; that I need to learn how to say no; and that I also need to take a more aggressive control of my life and career.
I've also come to realize there are parts of my life--small ones, but they are nevertheless there--that are toxic and must be removed. This will not be easy, but it has to be done.
Anyway, the most important goal of the year is to take better care of myself, and as opposed to my usual yearly goal to do so, it's not just about the physical for 2014. I need to take better care of myself not just in getting to the gym more regularly to do cardio (ha ha ha ha, such an ENORMOUS failure this past year), but emotionally and spiritually and mentally as well. This year is going to be about bringing myself and my life back into a better sort of balance, and sometimes that's going to mean putting myself first, and not to feel guilty about doing so.
2014 has the potential already to be a very bad year, but once again, looking ahead to the possibilities of how things can go very badly for me has also given me a clarity that I've lacked for some time. This lack of clarity has a lot to do with working too much and agreeing to do too much--I've been so busy all the time I haven't had time to think about anything, and when I'm not working I am so tired that i don't want to think about anything. The time that I used to spend daydreaming and writing in my head, which made writing so much easier for me, is now spent collapsed in my easy chair so tired that I can't focus or think about anything, which in its turn has made the writing that much harder to do. Having the last two days off, and not making myself crazy trying to catch up with emails or writing or bills or whatever has been wonderful for me; yesterday after I finished the play I sat in my easy chair during the LSU-Iowa game (GEAUX TIGERS!) and mapped out the work-in-progress, which is going to make the writing ever so much easier, which is of course the best thing ever. I was able to sleep well last night, and today I woke up rested and didn't immediately launch into stress mode the moment my eyes opened.
That was a really good feeling, and it's one I would like to experience, if not every morning, than most.
I've already trimmed back my editing schedule, and I have also not signed as many book contracts for this year.
2014 is going to be the year of deciding what I want, and how best to get it.
And so that's that. Those are the new goals.
And now, back to the spice mines.
Good luck with your goals. I agree that balance is a great focus. I'm trying to do a bit of that myself.
If we set up a signing at MBTB in February, think you'd be able to come over for it? AIIIEEEE. Here I am making demands on your time!
HA HA HA HA!
Depends on when it is....February is Mardi Gras month and I've already agreed to go to Sleuthfest in Orlando, which is the 26th thru March 2, and there is an event I have to be in New Orleans for the weekend of February 15th.
"This year is going to be about bringing myself and my life back into a better sort of balance, and sometimes that's going to mean putting myself first, and not to feel guilty about doing so."
Nothing wrong with that at all . . . sounds like a very, very good idea.
We all do need R&R from time to time (however much we don't think we do!) so I do hope you'll allow yourself much more this year.
Happy New Year to you and to Paul.